Pressure

12/22/13

At some point in our lives

We turn to irresponsible acts like drinking and smoking

Just to run away from something that we don’t want to deal with.

To something that we want to forget because it affected us so much that we want to feel absolutely nothing.

We turn to these unnecessary things to forget what had happen

We turn to these unnecessary things to forget what we lost

We turn to these unnecessary things to forget what left us there… hanging all alone

What loved us but hurt us in the end, what needed us but only used us at that moment, but mostly giving your all and getting nothing back in return.

Because being sober and feeling what had happen to us was the worst feeling ever

Because being drunk and not being able to focus about what happened to us helped us feel empty inside

Because being sober made us feel useless and complete shit

Because being drunk made us feel nothing, it made us feel numb…

Because being sober made us cry over and over and over without stopping to take a breath

Because being drunk and crying at the same time didn’t matter at all because it made us feel emotionless

Because being sober sucked

And being drunk was just another way to run away from something we didn’t want to face…

Which is reality.