One Soul That Tried

11/19/2013

The touch of your skin

The look in your eyes

The love you gave

From left to right

I never knew someone could

Make another person feel so right

The laughs we shared

The talks we had

The secrets we whispered

After long hours

In the middle of the night

Talking about our confessions

Our faults in life

Our dreams and goals

Our regrets that we’ve made

Our fears and doubts and problems we’ve faced

In the past, present, and talking about our future

But what I loved the most was

The loved that we shared for each other

To let each other know that

We were both wanted by one another

And that was something I will never forget

Because it

“Was unforgettable”

The way you asked for permission

To call and say hello

To hear my voice when I just wanted to hear yours instead

The feeling of butterflies dancing in my stomach

And stuttering because I was too shy and nervous to talk to you

Which I've never felt in a long time

And when I mean long…

I mean a very long time

But…

Yes I said BUT

Because there’s always something that ruins a good thing

Within the first couple months of talking, and laughing, and loving, and getting to know each other

It was all a great start but once it was a daily routine and we started to get too comfortable

I knew things wouldn’t work out

Because of the distance

Even though people said

“Distance makes the heart grow fonder”

I knew something was bound to happen

To this so called “good thing”

But of course we drifted apart because you couldn’t handle

The risk of our relationship… our distance… our chance

To see if this would actually work out

I am not mad at you

I am not upset at you

And I am not a weak person

But I am hurt.

I am hurt to the point where I cried over you for THREE years…

THREE WHOLE YEARS

Over someone that I met in a day, but talked for hours on the phone

Over someone I gave the benefit of the doubt

Over someone I could share everything with

Over someone I didn’t hesitate to call cause I knew you’d be there for me

I gave you all of me…

But you let go of me…

You drifted away

YOU drifting apart from me hurt me

And it did a lot of damage to my heart

And the sad part is…

Is that you didn’t even know it

Because you thought it was just something you could let go easily

But did you think about what I was going through?

Ever since you suddenly stopped calling

Stopped texting

Stopped communicating in every way possible

I knew from then you gave up…

You gave up on us

But what I can’t forget was that

You locked me into your heart and showed me ways to love the things about me that I hated so much

You showed me how to care and love someone when I didn’t know how to

You showed me how it felt to have butterflies in my stomach for the first time

You showed me how I am when I have a broken heart

You showed me how to love something, how to love someone like you within a second

But what I can’t thank you enough is the lesson you taught my heart…

And it was to love harder than ever

To be a stronger person than I was before and to show myself that there is someone out there that can love me and would take the risk to fight for my love because you couldn’t.

So thank you for that

But then again they say…

Nothing good lasts forever