Decisions

11/19/2013

The words

The thoughts

The mistakes

I've made from my past and present

And maybe in my upcoming future

Who knows?

The only person that can determine that is God

He has a plan for us all right?

Because I’m giving him all my trust and faith

To make my dreams and desires come true

But of course

I know I have to do my part

In order for him to do his job

But I've been doing my job

And I feel like I'm still not moving forward

The struggles

The doubts

The many problems

I've been going through in my life

I cannot take it anymore

But what’s a gain without a struggle

All I want…

All I want is to push away but I cannot

The feeling that no one understands

How they…

My PARENTS

Cannot see that I am trying the best that I can do

The expectations from my parents

Knowing from

My right and wrongs

Knowing what is

Suppose to be done and what is not

Learning to adapt from their decisions they’ve made for me

When I haven’t even decided for myself

Understanding that I can not follow through

But in the end I have to