To the 19 year old me

9/3/2016

To the 19 year old me

You were afraid.

You were terrified. You were weeping, every day and every night. You were seeking...

For a love that you wanted for so long

A love that wanted the whole you

The real YOU

The you that you thought could never be loved nor touched

A love that could embrace you

When you fall, when you cry, and when you were at your weakest

A love that holds tight to your flaws

Without hesitation

A love that said, “I love you” to your scars

Your wounds, your bruises, your stretch marks

You prayed each night to ask God when your day will come

A day that made you feel so worthy

So powerful

So beautiful

Yet, so delicate.

A loved that you dreamed of

A love that made you felt special

A love that God knew would be precious

A love that was so unconditional

The only thing that was holding you back

Was the love you had for your own self

Loving yourself was the hardest challenge for you to overcome

A battle that you have been fighting for 

For more than ten years... TEN YEARS

And with those years,

It tore you apart

Into little pieces you could not put back together

What made you think that someone else could do that for you?

Loving yourself was what you were really asking for IN THE END